I remember being a little girl and thinking how bad I wanted to grow up. As I grew older I realized that the older you became, the more the world opened up to you. As a young adult I was positive there was just no way that I would ever live long enough to enjoy everything that could potentially be me and my future. Now, forty-four years into it ... I just pray that it slows down a little.
For the last year and a half I have been living a family dynamic that I never once could have ever imagined. As you watch your children grow up right before your eyes and finally have time to catch your breath, you watch everything else that has ever surrounded you feeling so concrete and permanent changing.
As we go through the remaining months of what I barely remember as being a 'new year' - I am hoping to find the strength to accomplish everything that I am facing. It is so amazing how some things feel so positive and others seem as if they are the final straw that will break the camels back. I will find a way, I have always been able to. When I look back at how far I have come in life - I know I can do it. I remember my sister once told me - you make your own happiness. I think it's time I take that advice.
Here is to beautiful disasters ... *cheers
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